Saturday, January 4, 2014


Hi everyone! Its been far far too long. Once I got my job I knew I needed to take some time to focus on that and renegotiating what life was going to look like with that. I've been getting into a new routine and spending as much extra time with the little one as I could.  Coach is in a very busy season with work ( we're talkin' 12-14 hour days up until his christmas break-) so when he had an hour or two to spare on the weekends we were spending that time together as a family. I also found that I didn't have much to say during that time either. It wasn't necessarily that I wasn't inspired, but I was thinking over a lot of things I wanted for this year and had less to say as a result. Now that it is the new year I have so much I want to share and lots of exciting plans. 

Today I'm linking up with Casey Leigh to discuss my word for the year: 

  I hope everyone's holiday was great- and that everyone's new year is off to a great start! I was never a resolution person in the past- always writing the new year off as a time when people make promises to themselves that they eventually do not keep. After a year of a LOT of transition for my family and I, I am hoping this year is one of calm and quiet preparation. We truly have no clue what the military has in store for us this year,  but I really want this year to be one where we reach some goals as a family and I overcome or achieve things that have been on my mind for a long time. I am going to spend the next little while talking about goals/ resolutions/  and what I want for myself in this new year. 

I've spent a lot of time praying for clarity, and not only to, as Bob Goff Says "see God's fingerprints" but to have peace of mind and conviction for what He wants for my life.  One of my favorite things to do every year starting with a few years ago has been to chose a word for the year. Even when I was not a huge resolution-maker I loved the idea of picking a word to define what I wanted the year to be about. Casey did this in the past and wrote about it- and that is what got me started on it. Now I'm seeing a lot of people do this, and I love it!  This year, my word is 


Webster Defines it as "Lacking Fear". I don't mean that I will lack fear this year coming up- but rather I am going to FEAR LESS. And even when I am afraid, I am going to, as Lara Casey says, "feel the fear, and do it anyway". The synonyms listed below the definition were a better fit for what this word means to me. They are: 

bold, brave, courageous, intrepid, valiant, valorous, gallant, plucky, lionhearted, heroic, daring, audacious, indomitable, doughty. 

To be courageous is not to be without fear- but to feel it and do it anyway.

I struggle with fear, with worrying. My biggest fear is FAILURE. It still doesn't make sense to me why I fear this so much, but it is what it is. I have been reading a lot about athletes with the olympics coming up, and I've been reading about Roger Bannister (more on him soon). It seems almost every time I read about a successful athlete , failure comes up. And they always say they fail all the time, or that their failure now contributes to their future success. 

"One step short of success is not a failure. Failing is not a 'failure' if it gets you closer to success tomorrow." Lolo Jones 

Some of the goals I have in mind for this year are to overcome things; things that when I think about them I start to feel icky and my heartbeat quickens. But I'm just done with those things. And I feel unequivocally that this year- THIS year- I am to overcome those things so that I can trust more- so that I can do what I was put on this earth to do and just not be encumbered by things that have been dragging me down. 

And more than anything- that this is the year to overcome fear, and especially fear of failure. The only way to do that, however is to feel the fear and do it  anyway; and to realize that I won't in fact, turn into a pumpkin if I do face that which scares me the most. 

Next time I'm going to talk about watching other succeed and live their lives to fulfill their purpose. 

What is your word for this year? What is your hope for the year to come? 

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